When you ask, the world delivers. Thoughts are energy.

Although I deleted all of 2018's blog posts, those of you who know me personally know that my life was.... interesting and a bit of a rollercoaster. I started the year still in a relationship, unbeknownst to me was a lot more rocky than I thought and by the end of January, he ended things. Needless to say, I went pretty crazy in the head for a few months. I felt legit insane. I somehow started to process life and by June I randomly found a job posting, applied, interviewed and got the job within 2 weeks. I rocked the phone interview, but the in-person one left me confused. It couldn't be this easy, could it? Yep. Because when you ask life for something, you can really manifest anything you want. 

So, the new job meant a new apartment and essentially, the beginning of my new life. Don't get me wrong, as I ended the old one, I had a few highlights of the new MacBook I'm typing on, a trip to Mexico and paying off debt (whiiiich I later accrued again. Insert eye roll face.) Things flew by that summer and hit a comfortable content pace towards the end of the year. Now, here we are at the start of a new year. The slow pace is making me feel a bit restless. Time, of course, moves along at a rapid pace, but the day to day stuff has me a bit bored. 

A few months ago, I went out for drinks with a friend's brother-in-law. Honestly, not really my type. And I feel bad for saying that should he ever find this. I didn't really think we hit it off. I felt like I was in control of the conversation and being a counselor of sorts, hearing what people are really saying is quite literally my job. So, I wasn't impressed with even some of the things he was literally saying- attitudes about marriage and kids etc. 

We didn't really talk after that. A few texts, but it basically just ended. I wasn't into it, so I didn't really care. Well.... admittedly, he's popped in my mind lately as I find myself bored, not as dating material, but perhaps just someone to hang out with around town. And what did I tell you about manifesting things????? HMMMM?????? Because boy out of the blue messaged me today. And has been wanting to see me or something. Annnnd because I still don't give a fuck, I called him out on it. Weeks of silence and now you want to see me? Boy.... wtf. 

So whatever. I'm in it for friendship, but if he's as clever as my friend says he is and he can somehow wow me.... we'll see. I'm ok with dating right now.... still not into wanting to jump into a relationship. Not quite looking for that unless it feels right. 

Moral of the story--- MANIFEST YOUR LIFE. Concentrate on the feeling, give it thought often (perhaps as often as once daily, but think about it and let it go.)

Truth be told, I manifested my current job long ago. I think I detoured my life in a huge way by being with B for nearly 5 years. I have serious regrets not being with Karl. Apparently, I decided I needed to work out some karma first, before I find real love. 

Oh and side note: because I'm still a bit concerned I won't have a job at the end of the summer, I keep asking what will happen. Will we get funding or no? Well, last night, I had a dream of a psychic who told me to stop worrying already. Specifically, "stop asking that. yes, you're going to be fine!" She said it in the tone as if I was beating a dead horse. ha. ok, then. I'll stop and leave it up to the universe. 

Now really- go manifest some shit. It's fun.